my wife and I put baby harper in the ergo and went out for a walk yesterday. as we walked, we talked....about the kids....planning dylan's bday party, harper's baby naming, dylan's school visit to the library...and then I said to lisa, "is this the next 20 years of our life?"...see, she has embraced parenting and the idea that life now is focused on our children...and she loves it...she loves the planning, the amazon packages that come everyday, the baths, the art projects, cooking for the family...and it seems that her happiness comes from seeing dylan happy and soon to be harper...I'm not saying that seeing them happy doesn't make me happy I just thought there would be more....and everyone in my life is so happy for me for having 2 healthy children and having an amazing beautiful wife to walk through life with and I'm grateful and thankful for all that I have....so why am I contemplating my own happiness? i guess there's apart of me that misses my old life....25, living hand to mouth, making records, playing shows, sleeping around, upsetting my parents, taking the road less travelled...that was fun right? ryan adams has a new song on his new album I can relate to called "lucky now"....it goes "I don't remember were we wild and young all that faded into memory..." ok friends, dylan's hungry, baby's awake and I have to go....embrace my parenting responsibilities....more soon....like in 20 years:
DZ
DZ
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