the grind

we're all searching for something....deeper meaning...or maybe we're not...maybe just me...maybe it would be easier to just go about the day as if there is no meaning....and talk about the obvious things...like the weather...and sports....and things that distract us from reality...but you can't escape reality...my wife's uncle likes to say..."the only constant in life is reality". and he's right....it's constant the pressure to succeed or at least to survive...because we're all just surviving...even the ones with so much money they don't know what to do with it...bc they can be replaced in the blink of an eye...and they could be struggling to survive at any moment...bc there's no guarantee...all we can do is do our best and do better and try and be positive and not focus on negativity but even that is hard...even that is hard to do because there's so much negativity out there....telling us we're incapable and keeping us in line so we go about our lives as if this is what we want...is this what we want? why do we choose to live in the most expensive town in the country?  what's the alternative really?  the grass is always going to be greener so you might as well focus on the now and make the now better....the weather dropped this morning and it's as if someone is reminding me that seasons are changing and so is the world....so stop living in the past...the past is the past...the streets are crowded with people on their way to work and in their heads they're in their own worlds....listening to their podcasts or Spotify...trying to block out the noise....trying to find a spot to stand on the train....trying to not make eye contact....not looking to engage before their 10 hour day ahead of them....I get it....it's a lot for a human being...we miss the space and end up taking out on each other.....when really, we're not to blame...the city like the earth has become crowded....it just makes you want to build a house in the woods and go live there and figure it out....that prospect is looking more real everyday.....or...get a boat and sail away.....